enjoying school. barely keeping ahead of the mountains of work, but I feel like it's all worthwhile. fortunate for myself that I rented a non-smoking place because cigarettes go so well with art and whiskey and weed and staying up all night writing nonsense for teachers.

I dislike the expectation to be social. I feel extraordinarily lonely sometimes, but the pointless parties don't help. Steven is coming to visit for a few days at the end of the month so I get to be whole again briefly. It should hold me until winter break I suppose. I am so tired of the distance. 4 years is enough.

More nerdiness! They finally added Karana to the game!

Also happening this week: Epic drama in my necro's guild. I was good friends with Shintou back in EQ1, and I joined their guild here not long ago.

Then this happened.

http://www.eq2flames.com/rate-retard/14725-keigo-had-irl-sex-my-wife-ab-server-drama.html

In other news, work still sucks, it snowed this week, and I haven't peed on anymore pregnancy tests lately.

Yummy.

I am not pregnant, as the lack of little red line on the little white piece of plastic has made quite clear.

I am inexplicably sad about this. Steve cheered when I told him, but my heart broke a little.

http://www.facebook.com/profile.php?id=617351510

DO IT

Chicago is fkin sweet.

Road trip tomorrow! It's actually been put off for three days, since our flaky boss has been giving us the runaround with our cheque. She didn't even really come through in the end, although we managed to harrass her into a $300 advance. That woman is such a turd.

The thing I am most looking forward to about this trip is the shopping. I am down to a single pair of jeans without holes in the ass (although I did manage to patch up my favourite pair), two or three skirts, and a couple of shirts that should probably never be worn in public.

I quit smoking. For two weeks. Then I broke down and smoked a pack, quit again for a few days... and now I'm kinda smoking again. But only after sex. Or outside. Or when Steve's at work. Or asleep. Goddamnit, I'm trying! I don't even know why I started again. It gives me headaches now, my nighttime cough is back, and I can smell it on my clothes and in my hair - I never could before. I am so ridiculously attached to the act.

The day after we get back I have an exam to prove I'm not an idiot so they'll let me into school next semester. This might be a problem as I cannot remember how to do long division for the life of me.

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Apparently I gave Steve a "look"

"What? Did you fart?"
"No."
"...are you pooping?"